Well this was unexpected

Well, here I am, again. I know the world of blogging has changed a lot since my first blog many years ago and honestly I’m not even sure why I’m doing this, but here we are. Writing has always been cathartic. I never know what is going to come out until I sit down and the words start appearing on the screen. My fingers fly over the keys. The thoughts simply pour out. I rarely ever edited my posts and am not sure I will here either. I know I could simply keep a journal but putting this out in the world offers the chance for connection, which I’ve realized is the crux of life. Connecting with others. Finding commonality. Sharing joys. Sharing struggles. Meeting a stranger who turns into a friend. Feeling less alone. Cultivating community. Radiating love.

So that’s my plan. Write. Here. If anyone reads it, great. If not, great. My purpose of putting it out there is served either way.

Today is the first morning I’ve had with all three kids in school and my plan had been to spend the 4 hours working, but I realized that as much as I love my job, it lacks that creative outlet that writing has always provided. So at least 30 minutes of each of my “work” days will now be devoted to writing. Perhaps I’ll come up with themes. Perhaps it’ll be haphazard. Perhaps it’ll turn into my dream of writing a book. I suppose time will tell.

It is odd to sit and write a first blog post. I don’t feel the desire to write about the niceties - who I am, my background, my current job, etc. - it seems irrelevant for some reason.

So instead let’s just see where this goes. I told you I don’t plan what comes out until the words start flowing…

I feel as though I’m at another crossroads in life. I’m not unfulfilled in what I’m doing, but I have this deep yearning that there is something else that I am meant to be doing in addition to my job and being a mom. So I guess that does require some background. Readers digest version: I was a lawyer for 8 years. I quit over 3.5 years ago when my 3rd child was born. I now mom full time and have a successful business in direct retail (aka direct sales/MLM, whatever you want to call it). I believe in my company. I believe in my product. I believe in our mission. I love my team and the community. BUT, I think there is something in addition I should be doing.

It is easy to fall into the comparison trap when working in sales. I look at the social media accounts of other women and the accounts are gorgeous, the wording is perfect and the images are stellar. And I think, “I can’t do that.” Actually, I think “I could do that but it would never be that good.” It isn’t lost on me that I have a business that is enviable to many. I make thousands of dollars a month working very flexible hours. But I’ve learned you can still love what you do and question it. Not question it, but critically look at it to see if it is filling YOU up in the way you want. And that’s where I am.

I am passionate about helping other women lead lives they love. I was stuck for years in a career that did not light my soul up and I know what that is like. I also know what it is like to come out on the other side. I want to help as many women as possible feel that fire. BUT in my current position I am limited in the women I help because I can only work with women who decide to hitch their wagon to my company and my team. I want more.

I want to reach the women who have a business idea and don’t know where to begin. I want to help the women who have a glimmer of light deep down that maybe they haven’t even admitted to anyone and help them spark that flame into a fire. I want to help women uncover the confidence that lives inside each of them. I want to help women be proud of themselves and grow into their wholeness. I want the honor of walking alongside someone as she steps into her ideas and turns them into reality.

So I guess this is the start of my journey into women’s empowerment by way of business mentoring/coaching. As it appears that is what is on my heart. Well look at that. The words that came just gave me direction. Now to figure out how to turn this into reality.

Stay tuned…I have no more idea of where this is going than you do. How fun this will be!